♥Wednesday, February 11, 2009
You're right. It's that time of the night, and I'm bored shitless (yet again). If loneliness doesn't kill you, then boredom will. Since I've been doing my same ol boring daily routine, I thought I'd spice things up for myself by blogging. I love writing as it helps me relieve my anger/anxiousness/frustration without physically hurting anyone. That explained why I took up media and communication which consists of nothing else but essays one after another.
I may have ranted a heap load but in all honesty, writing is one of my passion and I can write just about anything. Well today, I choose to write about one's circle of influence with no specific intentions. I may have witnessed many innocent souls thrown into a bag of trash. I feel sorry for them hence I'm blogging about it. What more can I do? When you're in that situation, you're bound to be living in denial thus this leads to an unintended self-defend mechanism. You deny time after time to make yourself look good, but deep inside you feel like a total piece of trash.
I see good in no harm (rivalry) such as, dressing better than your cliques or achieving more in life than your circle of influence. Some claims that thats just pure bimbo-ness. I see no harm in engaging in recreactional illegal activites such as vandalizing the space or partying with chemicals. Some believe that it is way overboard. I had and always will stand by the notion that "although it is not good for you to take everything in moderation, your body might be able to withstand everything in moderation." In simpler words, my perception towards having fun is to do everything in moderation. Live life to its fullest, try everything that the world has to offer BUT only if you have SELF-CONTROL.
Being influenced by your peers are often said to be one of the greatest fears of every parent. However, I believe if you have proper self-control and sufficient self-believe then you need not fear about how bad one's circle of influence could be. Well, enough said. You get my point and I've already let out all the anxiousness built in me. I think my bed is calling for me :) Goodnight world.
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♥Friday, February 6, 2009
People are often mistaken by the meaning of love. You make sacrifices for one another and you call that love. You buy a valentine's day gift for them and you call that love. You sit at home waiting for him/her to finish their work just to grab dinner and you call that love. You do not have the appetite to eat and you call that love sick. You miss him or her having been used to each other's companion and you call that love. Who is to judge to which extent each individuals measure love.
Well, my definition to love is certainly all of the above plus a heap lot more. To me, I fear not what other people has to say about my other half, I speak of the truth and I do not fill in the blanks with colorful words to make my other half look/sound envious because ultimately, only we can complete each other. In addition, I believe one can only genuinely love and cherish their other half once (or twice or many times after) they've been through hard ships together. When I mean hard ship, its not about burning mid night oil (that's what you brought upon yourself, silly!), but slogging and going through hurdles that life had made you face in order to be a stronger person. As much as I hate admitting it, I strongly believe situations as such only seek to strengthen your relationship. Therefore in my opinion, couples who do not argue or people who possess submissive attitude can not use the word LOVE but instead, they should rephrase that strong and meaningful word to 'AGHAST' or 'AFRAID' or whichever one they prefer :)
I can, with all confidence say that I really truly and genuinely love my boyfriend, Chris because the way I feel for him is totally indescribable. We've been through distance, you may think its a short period of time but hey genius, 2 months is a long time! We've endured more than enough hard ships together, we've shared phases in life which are probably too private to blog & tell, we've had so many differences in the past but somehow managed to set that aside and continue with our strong and loving journey of life, we've had so many downfalls in life and yet, managed to stand tall and smile, we've had penniless days but still managed to fill our tummy. This are not the exact things lovers should do for each other, rather these are things that lovers want to do for each other. We do not exacerbate the differences that we've had or may have had, but instead we made our differences seem so insignificant and dwell on our joy that we've had throughout our 4 year relationship.
For this, I'm reinstating my point for the millionth time, that what I feel for Chris is purely love and love only. To those who are single, my hugs goes out to you all. I'll blog again when I'm this bored. Til then, use that strong word wisely!
I LOVE YOU CHRIS!
1:02 AM;
♥Thursday, September 4, 2008
Hello everyone !!
I'm back in Malaysia, alive and kicking despite the not-so-wonderful flight. The food was horrible (although I was extremely hungry) and the service was extra slow. I had the lights on asking for service for half an hour before a flight attendant noticed it. Mind you, there were so many flight attendants walking pass me and didnt notice it as I kept silent. Well, let's just say the service is horrible beyond words. Joey & Alvin's wedding in Melbourne was a great success with the help of *ahem* the bridesmaids and bestmans, Chris and also Shelley :) Thanks on behalf of Joey!! To those who attended, we are very very thankful for your presence and the wonderful presents. Pictures will be up soon... Patience people!
Well for now, I'd have to satisfy the ZzZMonsterZzz in me. Extremely exhausted having been walking around the whole of JB.. Well, not quite the whole of JB but you get my point.
Goodnight everyone, I wish you well.
P/s: I will keep you all updated on the Kuching wedding which is on the 7th of September and JB wedding on the 13th September. Peace.
4:03 AM;
♥Monday, August 11, 2008
Well, I secretly decided to quit drinking for a good one or two months to detox my body and to allow my kidney to take a break from all the havoc nights; birthdays after birthdays- but guess what? I failed to do & instead, I drank, got wasted and yes, I spewed! However, bits and pieces (mainly from photos) that I remembered turned out to be pretty fun :) I'm not sure if I'm suffering from a deprived teenage-hood of some sort or whatever its called, but I'm actually enjoying clubbing all over again. Well, maybe with the companion of my threesomes <3
I must say that clubbing with my threesomes is probably one of the best ways to relief all your tension and stress built up from everything. However, there's always a downside to everything, and since I'm currently financially independent, I think I have to set my priorities right and work to support myself- I've almost wiped out my back account by funding for my visa application :(
Rah, speaking about visa application, I went for a full body check up (blood test & x-ray) yesterday and I've got a bloody big bruise now on my arm because they used a syringe to get some of my blood out. If I were to wear a short sleeve out, which I wont (thank god its winter), people would probably think I'm a heroin addict or some junkie :( Here's a picture of my arm AFTER the blood test.
Now that the band aid is off, there's a bruise on my arm. I can't be bothered taking a photo of the bruise cos I know it will eventually go off :) I hate doing medical check ups because it takes up so much time. I made a booking at 2pm and I arrived at 1.45pm, queued up til 2.30 and finished the whole procedure at about 4pm! What a waste of time. The actual x-ray, urine test and blood test only takes about 30minutes but the whole waiting process is such a pain in the bum. Well, if you think that's bad, I went to the clinic SICK okay !! I am down with cold and a slight fever but I'm feeling better now after some rest and medication.
Oh well, on a lighter note, I've finally organized and paid for my visa application. Now, all that's left is to photocopy everything and send out all the forms. There's like 50,000 forms. haha, no I'm exaggerating. Okayyy so here I am, waiting with great anticipation for the clock to tick faster coz MALAYSIAAAAA here I come!! I'll be departing Melbourne on September 2nd for my sister's wedding. My six sense tells me that it's gonna be fun :) So I'm rather anxious at this point.
I'll be working tonight so I should get some rest now :) Thanks for visiting this rather mundane blog and I'll be back for more interesting and shocking news the next time I blog.
Peanut & Punto wishes you goodluck, good day and they hope everything goes well for you. Goodbye for now. xoxo
1:48 AM;
♥Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Hey everyone, I'm back for more blogging (hopefully it'll last longer this time) & from now forth, I shall blog more often since I have not much to do. Graduated & free, my current occupation is a professional bummer, just so you know (: However, I still have my part time job as a bartender and I'm in the process of applying for my Graduate Visa.
Didn't know this whole visa thinggy can be so draining- police records, medical check up (again), IELTS Test which I don't understand and filling up forms after forms. I just don't understand why we have to do IELTS test to prove to the immigration that we can speak English. I mean, having been in Australia for 4 years, completed college and tertiary education, who won't be able to speak the language? Geez. Sometimes, I just don't get it :X
Well, so I've been just enjoying life to its fullest now, bumming, partying, drinking and um, more drinking. Anyone got a kidney or two to spare just in case mine decides to fail on me? Hmm. *touchwood* but at some point, I WILL finally come to my senses and stop enjoying life
Besides bumming around, I've also been cooking!! I didn't realize how fun cooking can get until..... I got broke. HAHAHHAHAHA ! Well, enough of ranting about my pathetic life, I shall keep ya'll updated with some interesting stuff the next time I blog. Time for my one hour hot shower to unfreeze my already frozen body.
Goodnight everyone, xoxo
9:44 PM;